This Bud's For You


Actually, as I type this post, I'm drinking a BL Lime (the flavored Bud Light that Rachel fell in love with when she was "home" last.)

More about that later...


Guess where I went this afternoon?

Okay...that was toooooooo easy!

And, you're already anticipating the more difficult question..."What was playing on the radio?"


TIME OUT!

If you are tired of my "sign" stories...too bad...too sad...go watch an election commercial!!! I like MY signs...they're my stories and I'm sticking to them!


In answer to the more difficult question...

Turning into the cemetery...nothing...nada...something totally inappropriate. BUT...HEY, Julie made up for it later...saved the best for last!

By the way...where have all the butterflies gone??? I've seen a few "from a distance", but no floor shows like last year! Whassup with that???

Anyway...when I started the car to leave the cemetery, the song that came on was "Time of My Life". No, NOT the "oldie" by Bill Medley and Jennifer Warnes. Instead, it was the "newbie" by David Cook, who won Season 7 of American Idol.

To be honest...

I am an admittedly deaf old man, although I had trouble discerning lyrics to songs even back in my college days...and NOT just "Louie, Louie" by the Kingsmen. However, my feeble ears did pick out a lyric or two that convinced me that maybe Julie was speaking to me again.

When I got home, I employed that marvelous invention...the Internet. (A special "shout out" to Al Gore. Don't know what we would do without it, Al!)

The song? Darn...wrong number!


NOTE: Just turned on the television at 5 p.m. and heard that Barack Obama's grandmother passed away...ONE DAY before the election. Before returning to this post, went downstairs to get another BL Lime...and had another "sign" that literally brought me to my knees. Stay tuned...


Okay, because of my latest sign, I've lost my perkiness...so let me get right to the point of Julie's musical selections for the day.

I e-mailed Rachel about a half hour ago and told her that evidently the battery must have run down on her "heavenly cell phone". Since Julie couldn't reach her, she sent the musical message to me for forwarding...


David Cook
"Time Of My Life" Lyrics


I’ve been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn’t see it
Until I let go
Gave in to love
Watched all the bitterness burn
Now I’m coming alive
Body and soul
Feelin’ my world start to turn

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time
This is the time to be
More than a name or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life…

Holdin’ onto things that
Vanished into the air
Left me in pieces but
Now I’m rising from the ashes
Findin’ my wings and all that I needed
Was there all along
Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time
This is the time to be
More than a name or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life…

Now I’m out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
Keepin’ my feet on the ground
My arms open wide
Facing the sun

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time
This is the time to be
More than a name or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life…

More than a name or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life...

This is the time of my life…
Time of my life…


As a refresher...Rachel is the one into "rainbows", citing Julie as the "wind beneath her wings", and deciding to leave the grief behind and move on with life. You think those lyrics don't match...well, look again!


Of course, Julie wouldn't "use me" to talk to Rachel without including me in on the call! Her message to me...


Backstreet Boys
"Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely" Lyrics

So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me, and maybe
Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free I could feel the sun
Your every wish will be done
They tell me

Chorus:
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze, if only
beauty roads to an endless love (endless love)
There's no control
Are you with me now
Your every wish will be done
They tell me

Chorus:
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with (tell me why)
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart

Bridge:
There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body and soul
How can it be you're asking me to feel the things you never show

You are missing in my heart
Tell me why can't I be there where you are

Chorus:
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with (tell me why)
Tell me why I can't be there where you are (where you are)
There's something missing in my heart (you are missing in my heart)

Show me the meaning of being lonely (being lonely)
Is this the feeling I need to walk with (tell me why)
Tell me why I (can't be there) can't be there where you are
(where you are)There's something missing in my heart


Okay, THAT's it for the musical selections for today, BUT...Julie was NOT through for today!

As for the title of this post...

My upstairs cache of "medication" was running low, but I knew there was no need to panic...that I had "refills" downstairs. When I opened my "drink refrigerator" (which ALSO holds water and soda I will have you know), I was surprised at what I found.

Julie had made the drink selection for me!

The little "freezer compartment" at the top lost its door long ago. This makes it a perfect place to place my "longnecks"...they get super cold, but do not freeze.

Well, for the first time ever (and trust me, I have visited OFTEN), one beer was "hanging out" of the freezer...literally had slipped halfway out. YEP...a BL Lime! Trust me...I didn't need any further "sign" as to what I would be drinking tonight!!!

Rachel...this Bud was for you!!!


As for my aforementioned other experience this evening...

In my "Black Magic Woman" post of November 1st (a retrospective about the first anniversary of my "cemetery experience"), I (in mid-post) related that I had discovered that Julie HAD sent me a message that day..."taking out the furnace", but that I had overlooked it in my fixation on butterflies and birds.

Well, actually, I didn't REALLY expect to see butterflies and birds...hoping maybe for a special song. Oh, there was ANOTHER SIGN that I looked for BOTH before and after going to the cemetery on that anniversary...a sign that was special to Julie and I...that we spoke of often as it related to her brother, father, and mother. It was a "special sign" that I mentioned in my "Send Me A Sign" post last year. If you read that post again, focusing on the two e-mails, you will note my reference to the lights in the beer/wine room...the lights that I had to replace around the time of Julie's passing...the last one, in fact, right before I went to the cemetery for my "experience".

To my disappointment, the lights in the beer/wine room burned brightly on the first anniversary...adding to my "moroseness" on that day.

Well, with this "lead in", you have probably guessed...

Nah, you'd be wrong again! You were thinking that when I went down to the basement to get my second BL Lime...that when I flipped the lights on, one of the bulbs burned out...showing me that it was no "coincidence" that the first BL Lime had slipped halfway out...for my taking.

You underestimate Julie!!!

NO!

TWO of the three lights "popped"...and went out!!!


If I had any doubts left...Julie erased them tonight!

Julie's spirit is "alive and well"!!!


Rachel...

Julie IS keeping the promise she made last year when she told BOTH of us on the same day..."You Are Not Alone!"


A final note...

Rachel and I kept tabs on each other as we approached the first anniversary of Julie's passing. I told Rachel that I had been trying to comfort myself with a bouncy little song by one of my favorite singers, Bob Marley. The song was "Three Little Birds". There was no great meaning in the song...it didn't "speak to me" as a "sign". I just liked the upbeat message...


Bob Marley
"Three Little Birds" Lyrics

'Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing is gonna be all right.
Singin': 'Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!'

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', ('This is my message to you-ou-ou:')

Singin': 'Don't worry 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing is gonna be all right.'
Singin': 'Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing is gonna be all right!'

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', 'This is my message to you-ou-ou:'

Singin': 'Don't worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!
Every little thing is gonna be all right. Don't worry!'
Singin': 'Don't worry about a thing' - I won't worry!
''Cause every little is thing gonna be all right.'


Rachel's response was her adoption of Elton John's "Sad Songs" as her "pick-me-up" song...and her blog post of how relieved and optimistic that she felt...on BOTH of our behalfs. That (with Julie's help) we would both be "all right".

Have to admit...I didn't feel as positive and upbeat as she.

However, TODAY...with what has transpired during the past couple of weeks and especially this evening, you know...for the first time in a long, long time, I feel inclined to give it a try!

You might say that "I've seen the light"...the one that's still burning!


Singin': 'Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing is gonna be all right' - I won't worry!
Singin': 'Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing is gonna be all right.'
Singin': 'Don't worry about a thing, oh no!
'Cause every little thing is gonna be all right!